Today’s a hard day

In May, I lost my dad. Today is his birthday and all I can think about it how much I wish he was still here. I wish he was teaching me what he knew, dancing to music with me, laughing with me, and hugging me goodnight. I miss him so bad and it hurts everyday. There are good days and bad days. I was really close with my dad. In the beginning I tried to sit with my grief for 15 minutes a day. Sometimes I still have to do that and sometimes I can’t do it at all because it hurts too much. I am also trying to learn what he was going to teach me by myself which is hard. He was a mechanic and he worked on race cars. I know a little bit, but not nearly enough. How does everyone else deal with grief of a loved one?