Ever get stuck. Stuck wishing for how things used to be. And stuck wishing for how you want it to be. And then you just cant figure out how to keep going to get where you need to go. And you just miss how simple everything used to be.

There are answers to getting where you need to go but your stuck. In the quicksand of time.

Bad thing/good people

Why do bad things happen to good people? The saying goes, “only the good die young.” I mean you have someone who is a good person and they pray and do all the things and then all these bad things happen.

What can you do to stop the bad things? Is there a specific prayer? A spell? An herb? What can be done about all this bad energy that keeps coming to the good people? Is it just because they are good? The bad darkness is attracted to the good light. I don’t know. Let’s pray and send good vibes to all the good people in the world.


I feel like life is full of chaos. Peace is so hard to find. It’s also hard to practice. How do you practice peace? I work on self care even if it’s just a couple minutes a day. I don’t overwhelm myself with what is happening all around me. I try to clear all negative energy from around me. I try to surround myself with people who make me feel good. Who make me feel successful. Who support the path I’m taking even if it is unconventional. Follow what your heart wants. Stay blessed

Being sick and missing someone important

As many people know or don’t know, my dad passed away May 16 2019. He was always there when I was sick making sure I was okay. Making sure I was drinking enough and even helping me with a bath with washing my hair cuz I was too weak to stand and do it myself. He would make me Gatorade slushies and make sure I had blankets and a cool wet rag to keep my fever down. He would even pick up the chores I had to do because I couldn’t. Well, if they were important. Like something that had to do with the animals.

I haven’t been sick sick since he died but now I am. And it’s so hard to do all of this myself. Things that take me 5 minutes are taking way longer cuz I have to stop and rest. And I fell asleep making myself a slushy so then it froze and I had to wait for it to defrost. I still have to take care of the animals because there’s no one else to do it. And all I want is to rest. My body wants me to rest and recover. But I have to take care of the animals.

It does make me miss my dad though. He was always there for me and now I have to be there for myself.

Fireworks and stressful dogs

Blake, my dog, can’t stand loud noises. He freaks out at guns and fireworks. He will literally start shaking. I give him medicine to help him and I diffuse lavender and put some lavender on him. And he still curls up in a small spot and shakes and I feel so bad for him. Even worse today I’m petsitting and had to leave him with my mom and sister. We all live together so it’s not a stress stacker by moving him to another location. But I felt bad leaving him but I have a responsibility. I know he will be okay. I know I’ve done everything I can for him. But I still feel bad. I just want to hold him and make him better. What does everyone do for their dogs during stressful times?


Christmas is coming up now. It’s time for the holidays. I hope everyone is prepared? Does anyone else start buying presents in January for Christmas the next year so you aren’t dumping money in December? I just start buying little things here and there to stock away. But then there is always that one person your like crap. Forgot to get that present. And you have to go back and by December you don’t have any money anyway cuz money just seems to vanish this time of year. I only did that to one person this year. But I got it handled and it’s fine. I hope everyone’s has a good Christmas. Even though it hasn’t felt like Christmas. Merry Christmas y’all.


Anyone else have those days where you just have to pretend that the person you have lost is still here and that everything is fine. Then it hits you again and again that they aren’t here and your heart breaks all over again.

It’s okay to have those days. Grief is a never ending process. Let the emotions flow and write them out or talk them out. Have an outlet and do some self care. Grief is a very hard process. Take deep breaths. We will see them again one day.


I really enjoy canning. I’ve canned tomato soup and I’ve canned jelly’s and jams. I want to get into canning other things, but I need a pressure canner.

You can only do certain things at different acidity levels in water baths versus a pressure canner.

I took a course on canning and would have to go back and read over the information again on how to can veggies and meats. Did you know you can can meats. I think that’s crazy. But the beauty of canning is you know what’s in it. You are responsible for it. And if you have grown it yourself you know it’s organic.

I think canning is also important for those days when you are too tired to make dinner. You grab one of those meals you already prepped and all you have to do is heat it up.

Canning takes time though. It’s basically an all day adventure. Especially when I don’t have a bunch of pots. I only have one pot and I can only fit a handful of jars in it. So I have to do the same process over and over again.

It’s a lot of fun though and it’s very rewarding. I’m getting ready to make some beauty berry jelly.

Waking up

I keep telling myself that I will get up the first time I wake up. There is a line to that. If I wake up at 4. Everyone is still asleep. I can’t do anything anyway. I’ll go back to sleep. However, when I go back to sleep, I always sleep till like 8 and I feel like that is super late. I woke up at 5:45 and really didn’t want to be up but knew if I went back to sleep, and that’s a big if, that I’d wake up late. So, I did my whole morning routine with taking care of the animals. Now I’m wide awake.

I like the mornings though. When I don’t have a set schedule it’s hard to get up and work on time management. I did better when I had a hourglass and made it a game and tried to best the sand. I used it when I was in school. It helped me so I wasn’t sitting all day. I did a school activity, in the time frame. Got up and did something around the house. Then sat back down and did another school activity.

I am very visual, so I liked to see the sand falling to know how much time I had left. I wonder if it would work for the chores and different things I need to get done in the day. Besides canning. It wouldn’t work on canning.

A touching story

I heard a touching story today. This man and wife brought their dog into the vet. He wasn’t feeling very well. This week happened to be the anniversary week of him going into the hospital for a ruptured aneurysm and being in a coma for 34 days and then his wife’s mom died right after he got out of the hospital and it’s a hard week for his wife. I’d like to lift them up in good energy and prayers and hope that their week gets a little easier. On a brighten note their dog is going to be okay.